My stories from high school could probably fill an entire book. For that reason, I won't delve into any of them too deeply. Last night was eye opening for me though.
While enjoying dinner with my dear mentor, I shared several deeply painful situations from the good 'ol high-school era. Disappointment, pain, misunderstandings. Blah, blah, blah. I don't even know how we originally ended up on that topic, although I'm pretty sure the Holy Spirit was doing some directing of His own last night.
As invariably happens when I have a conversation with my mentor (which is partially why she is my mentor), I literally saw the exact situation that I've retold numerous times from a completely different angle. And in the process I discovered a big, hairy, ugly lie. A lie that comes so naturally to me that it scared me. A place I go to naturally, in almost all situations that don't go as I originally envision them.
That I'm not "good enough"
That there is something wrong with me.
It was fascinating how I finally saw that painful situation for what it was: foundational. A crappy foundation, but highly influential on how I do life today.
So I abandoned that lie. I'm done carrying that around with me. And I can't even tell you how much lighter life feels today. Oh progress, I missed you!
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